Life sometimes has a funny way of trying to get you. You have a life planned out and what you’re wanting and all of a sudden it crashes. Yes, literally crashes and for a moment….seems like no survivors.
Everyone has this type of season at one point in their life. Maybe not that dramatic, but a season where it’s time to learn and listen to God. A time when God is asking, will you trust me? Will you put your life in my hands? Will you allow me to take you further in life?
For me, this happened a few months back. Becoming unemployed was not what I had in mind, however I am happy to report the season of being unemployed is over. Was it hard? Yes. Was I sad? Yes, my lively hood was crushed. Was I uncertain? Man was I.
However, at this point I did what anyone would do. I cried like a big baby and was very upset. I kept asking why me? How did this happen? How did I get here? I even questioned God and asked how could this be? How could he let this happen to me?
Well God answered.
For a while before this, I was praying and asking God about my work situation. Not that I was unhappy at work, I liked my job, I liked helping people, and being able to the person that would send help to who needed it, but I was tired of working shift work, I was tired of working holidays, weekends, I wanted to see my son, I wanted to spend more time with my family. I knew I needed a job so just not having one wasn’t an option. Have you ever bought groceries for a 14 year old boy? It’s expensive. I would also pray to God and bargain with him, if you help me get another job, I promise I’ll be in church every Sunday.
Well it happened, I no longer had a job, with no back up job and for the last few months I have had a ton of free time. I began blogging in hopes to make money from it (How to Make Money Blogging), looking for at home jobs, making extra cash. But the one thing that I did begin to do, I began my journey back to God. Not that I left God, I just wasn’t doing all I could for God. Ultimately that’s what we are called to do, do what God wants us to do. I now attend church regularly and have joined a rosary making group. We hand make rosaries, so if anyone wants one, please feel free to email me your address and I’ll mail you one. It’s free!
I began reading books. I really enjoy reading the Bible, I mean all the answers are in there, but I also enjoy reading books by Joyce Meyer. The two books that I really recommend are Living Beyond Your Feelings and 12 Power Thoughts These two books have really helped my confidence to get back out there and take control of my life with the help of God. I do believe you are what you think, so if my thoughts are always horrible, negative, and being the victim, that’s exactly how life was going to be too.
Well since going back to church, and spending a lot more time with God, I really see how God wants me to be. I have always put others before myself, sometimes too much, but that’s what God wants from me. My journey began back in March, and I can tell you it’s the absolute best thing that could have happen. (at the time when it happened, not so much) Don’t get me wrong, I am far from where God wants me to be, I make a bunch of mistakes and make some choices that could be different, but God also is a God of forgiveness and he knows my heart.
I do believe God puts us through situations just to see how we will react. I’m sure at first God just shook his head at me. Now I believe I am doing great. He continues to show favor to me and uses me to help others.
Forcing me to a direction of uncharted waters made me to trust God. It forced me to see what he wants for me. This showed me what I need to work on as a person, as a mother and as a friend. I do need more work. 🙂
Truly trusting God with your life is very hard, however when you continue to put God before everything, he has no problem with making your life as easy as possible. I also believe that God put me through this situation so that I could tell you about it. To show that although we may not know what direction life is going, God will always be there to help you and get you through it.
Will you trust him?
Anchored by Christ. Single mom. Shih Tzu lover. But first coffee. Toast to the good life. Proverbs 3:5-6.